What if......

What if?....

Its such an open and thoughtful question.

Seeming to be so specific,

yet so broad....

Is this the question to which there is never an answer?

If there is an answer what is it?

Because the question refers to a past future tense,

there can be no sure answer.

So....what if....

I find myself looking for the answer to this question.

Even though I know there is not one.

I think all of us do at some time or another.

Why is this?

What is it about human nature that wants an answer all the time?

Are we ever satisfied?

No....

We're not.

And thats the point to this question.

We search for something that doesn't exist.

Emersing ourselves in something pointless.

Thus finding a sense of what we believe is joy.

But its not....
But someday...

It'll all come.

We will be completely happy.

I'm waiting for that day.....

Hearts

Hearts,

why is it that emotions can affect this organ?

Why is it you can actually feel emotional pain here?

How can they have endless amounts of love.

But a limited amount of hate.

Why is it that when it's hurt it takes so long to heal.

And when its actually happy.

It can change at any moment.

So.....comatose....

being defined as lacking alertness or energy,

My heart is in a coma.

My emotions lacking energy.

Waiting.....

Ecstasy

No its not a drug.

Ecstasy: an overpowering emotion or exaltation; a state of sudden, intense feeling.

Or in other words, complete happiness.

Through all of my talk of pain and love and such,

there also has to be the positive side of it all.

I'm not saying I'm in love,

but I'm definately in a state of totally ecstasy.

I've not been a very positive or happy person lately.

Mostly I think I was just whining or something,

but whatever it was,

its done now.

I'm happy.

Pain

Although most people believe hate is the opposite to love,

I think there is more to it.....

Yes its true that the opposite to the action of love is to hate.

But I believe that the opposite of feeling love,

is feeling pain....

Because of the pure and amazing bliss of feeling love,

is most definately the opposite of pain.....

Love....

Pain....

Everything is so complex...

I don't know what to think anymore...

If I'm feeling love then why is there so much pain?

And if its not love,

what is it?

That is why love is the most complex feeling.

Its the only feeling that can make you feel the opposite of what you are really feeling...

If I make any sense at all....

I don't feel hate...

I don't think I have the capacity to feel anything else...

I've got all my heart into feeling something I only wish was there...

But its not....

I don't think it will ever be....

Love

Have you ever wondered what love is?

I used to think I knew...

But the more I go through life,

the more I realize I don't.

I want to know what it is...alot...

Sometimes when I'm alone I think

"I'm in love".....

But how would I know...I don't....

I know I'm currently in the state of liking...

I really am....I like a girl...alot

She doesn't like me...

I really want to say that its love...

Maybe because love is supposed to prevail.

But I'm filled with doubts.....

I used to think I was confident...

but I'm not sure about many things anymore...

So love....

What is love

Love [luhv]:
A profoundly tender, passionate affection for another person.
A feeling of warm personal attachment or deep affection.

Thats what the dictionary says....

But words just can't say it...

I guess its just something you have to become familiar with by feeling it.

I want to feel it...

I want someone to feel it for me....

I want her to feel it for me...