Time

It has been a very long time since I have posted anything.
I don't even know if anyone even blogs anymore.
But I have things to say anyways so I'll keep on going.

So, time....
It has been flying by so fast.
I can't believe that I am graduated from high school.
It seems so unreal.
I never really thought of what it would be like when this day actually came.
I am so glad to be out of high school, but at the same time,
I miss it.
I guess it is just scary moving on.
There are so many things I can't leave behind.
It feels like I am.
I never thought it was a big deal,
but I am realizing more and more,
it's a huge deal.
Life is starting.
I'm not scared.
But I am nervous for what the future will hold.
Keep you all updated :)

Sleep

Sleep is like an airbag,

like a cushion through all your years.

It always gives you energy,

and can even dry your tears.

It may often be corrupt,

with dreams of guilt and fear.

But the purpose of our sleep,

must always be kept clear.

So I'll inflate my airbag,

then close my eyes and drift away.

I'll let the sleep be my cushion,

from the pains I feel each day.

So I wrote another poem.

But before I post it.

I gotta give you some background.

These are not actual feelings I have for someone.

Cuz I don't have anyone.

But these are feelings I could have for someone.

I didn't have to ever meet you,

before I'd say "I love you too".

You've always lived so far away,

but that don't matter my love still stays.

I do anything to hold you in my arms,

just to keep you from all world's harms.

I don't care how you look or what you weigh,

I'll still love you more each day.

So girl I write this poem for you,

so when we meet you'll know I love you.

FYI

Ok just so you all know whats goin on.

I imported all my posts from emotional blissfulness.

And put them on emotional comatose,

Mostly because I couldn't get it to work.

And then changed the name of this one to Emotional Blissfulness

So now it has everything.

Enjoy!

Down

So lately.

I've been sad.

I hate it.

I'm so sick of feeling self-pity.

So I'm done.

I quit.

Sadness, you lose.

I'm not sad anymore.

I don't know what is going to make me happy.

I guess I'll find something new everyday.

But I will find something.

Goodbye gloom.

Hello happiness.

Dreaming

Have you ever been too afraid to dream?

Ever hurt so bad you wanted to scream?

Have you wanted to hold on?

Just for fear that you couldn't let go?

Have you ever thought the con,

completely outweight the pro?

Do you want something more?

Just to make it feel much less.

It always cuts me to the core.

But I want the pain I guess.

I can't control this feeling.

Anymore then I can the sea.

But I wouldn't be willing,

even if I could, that's me....

YES!

Yes!

Thats right guys.

It's back!

I have officially reinstated the original blog!

I few changes have come about,

but its back.

And be ready....

Cuz a bloggin storm is acomin'

Confusion

Amidst all this deep thought,

through love,

and through hate.

Wondering if there is such a thing as fate.

I walk a path never tread before.

My emotions conflicted, my head at war.

I stop to see what I've been through.

Suddenly realizing, everything's new.

I don't know how I got here,

I don't know where to see.

To see a place I can go,

where you will see me.

What if......

What if?....

Its such an open and thoughtful question.

Seeming to be so specific,

yet so broad....

Is this the question to which there is never an answer?

If there is an answer what is it?

Because the question refers to a past future tense,

there can be no sure answer.

So....what if....

I find myself looking for the answer to this question.

Even though I know there is not one.

I think all of us do at some time or another.

Why is this?

What is it about human nature that wants an answer all the time?

Are we ever satisfied?

No....

We're not.

And thats the point to this question.

We search for something that doesn't exist.

Emersing ourselves in something pointless.

Thus finding a sense of what we believe is joy.

But its not....
But someday...

It'll all come.

We will be completely happy.

I'm waiting for that day.....

Hearts

Hearts,

why is it that emotions can affect this organ?

Why is it you can actually feel emotional pain here?

How can they have endless amounts of love.

But a limited amount of hate.

Why is it that when it's hurt it takes so long to heal.

And when its actually happy.

It can change at any moment.

So.....comatose....

being defined as lacking alertness or energy,

My heart is in a coma.

My emotions lacking energy.

Waiting.....

Ecstasy

No its not a drug.

Ecstasy: an overpowering emotion or exaltation; a state of sudden, intense feeling.

Or in other words, complete happiness.

Through all of my talk of pain and love and such,

there also has to be the positive side of it all.

I'm not saying I'm in love,

but I'm definately in a state of totally ecstasy.

I've not been a very positive or happy person lately.

Mostly I think I was just whining or something,

but whatever it was,

its done now.

I'm happy.

Pain

Although most people believe hate is the opposite to love,

I think there is more to it.....

Yes its true that the opposite to the action of love is to hate.

But I believe that the opposite of feeling love,

is feeling pain....

Because of the pure and amazing bliss of feeling love,

is most definately the opposite of pain.....

Love....

Pain....

Everything is so complex...

I don't know what to think anymore...

If I'm feeling love then why is there so much pain?

And if its not love,

what is it?

That is why love is the most complex feeling.

Its the only feeling that can make you feel the opposite of what you are really feeling...

If I make any sense at all....

I don't feel hate...

I don't think I have the capacity to feel anything else...

I've got all my heart into feeling something I only wish was there...

But its not....

I don't think it will ever be....

Love

Have you ever wondered what love is?

I used to think I knew...

But the more I go through life,

the more I realize I don't.

I want to know what it is...alot...

Sometimes when I'm alone I think

"I'm in love".....

But how would I know...I don't....

I know I'm currently in the state of liking...

I really am....I like a girl...alot

She doesn't like me...

I really want to say that its love...

Maybe because love is supposed to prevail.

But I'm filled with doubts.....

I used to think I was confident...

but I'm not sure about many things anymore...

So love....

What is love

Love [luhv]:
A profoundly tender, passionate affection for another person.
A feeling of warm personal attachment or deep affection.

Thats what the dictionary says....

But words just can't say it...

I guess its just something you have to become familiar with by feeling it.

I want to feel it...

I want someone to feel it for me....

I want her to feel it for me...

Write a song today. Play it tomorrow. Then buy food for yesterday.

Gahhhhhhhh!














This is me,
I'm a clutz
I just wanted to write a blog and I had to go and hit my elbow.
And now, it tingles!
I thought I'd tell the world about my freaking elbow cuz I'm one of those people with nothing better to do with my life then write random blogs.
Well anyways,
if your wondering what this has to do with writing a song,
it doesn't,
so get over it.
And if you don't understand me then get off the computer moron and go back to freaking grade school where you belong.
So I have two loves in this world,
first my friends Talon and Eric.
Talon rules!
He is the most talented musician!
And he can actually understand some of the retarded things I say!
Or at least he will pretend he does haha!
Now Eric on the other hand,
he's just something else,
I love him to death!
He has got to be one of the deepest people I've ever known,
but at the same time he is totally down to earth and knows whats going on.
Me and him see eye to eye on alot of things.
Me and Eric and Talon are definately the coolest people on the planet,
and everyone should pray they meet us someday.
My other great love is of music,
without music in this world there would be no ounce of sanity!
I love to listen to music and play music,
I am particularly drawn to the guitar,
although I don't think less of any other musical instrument.
All music is good music,
but don't get me wrong,
country should not be considered music so it is excluded from all my statements of such a subject.
Anyone disagree?
Too freaking bad I don't care,
just like I don't care if you lost your girl,
or your dog,
or your truck!
Thats fake!
Not MUSIC!